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kissmefriendly · 2 years ago

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Got my mother and my little brother staying with me soon. On the one hand, brilliant, I haven’t been in the same room with both of them at once in years. On the other, holy fuck how. In my place? It’s tiny! Someone is sleeping on the floor for a week and the other two are sharing a bed. I’ve never wanted to sleep on the floor more in my adult life.

#holy fuck could they not have scheduled this a little better?#also cannot wait to get shamed #for what? anything. it’s fair game.#a week’s worth of ‘you’re just being lazy’ and etc.#a week worth of name calling and transphobic slurs hurled at me #mainly from my mother who is staying much longer than a week #a week of never feeling safe because if I forgot to hide just ONE piece of paper or just ONE ticket to an event or ANYTHING #I could get re-outed as trans to them and my mother might actually kill me #I’m so scared lol #and my brother and I only JUST began talking again this year #before that the last time I saw him in person he was whaling on me #nearly broke my collarbone and hit my head against the tiles so badly it briefly knocked me out #I am happy that we’re back on speaking terms #but I admit I’m a little scared shitless #these two are (mostly in my mothers case) bearable ON THEIR OWN #I don’t think I can take them both at once #starting to feel like the city from a Godzilla vs Mothra film #YIKES.#doesn’t help that with my heart condition I can’t clean for as long or as well as I used to #they’re gonna rip me apart for that. ‘I LITERALLY have a debilitating heart condition I can’t stand without fainting’#’you’re just being lazy. sheer laziness. just drink some salt you’ll be fine it’s not a big deal’#I FAINTED TODAY JUST VACUUMING ONE ROOM!#anyways

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